LOVE|EVOL

Love is Evil spell it backwards and I’ll show ya…Eminem 

Have you ever been in love? 
Horrible isn’t
it? 
It makes you so vulnerable. 
It opens
your chest and it opens up your heart and it
means that someone can get inside you and
mess you up. 

You build up all these defences
You build up a whole suit of
armour, so that nothing can hurt you, then
one silly person, no different from any
other silly person, wanders into your silly
life, You give them a piece of you. They
didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb
one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and
then your life isn’t your own anymore. 

Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats
you out and leaves you crying in the
darkness, so simple a phrase like 
‘maybe we
should be just friends’
 turns into a glass
splinter working its way into your heart. It
hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in
the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, it  gets-inside-
you-and-rips-you-apart.
PAIN!!!.
 I hate love.
Do you still want to be in love?

This isn’t the diary of a broken hearted girl…its just some stuff I wrote in 2010 and kept in some facebook diary…saw it recently and laughed like crazy…I guess I was really mad at something then (I remember perfectly)…

And four years later i’m still struggling with  philophobia,i have learnt a whole lot any ways,i have restructured the way I think,and how I see things ,i have built up healthy walls,i have created for myself perfect escapes and getaways,i have really grown and then got really selfish…

Selfish? Yes! Selfish  Because I haven’t been able to answer the question I asked 4 years ago,i haven’t been able to answer if I want to fall in love…I just need someone to love me enough for the both of us…hehehe thanks drake!..